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Trust and Touch; The Sensory Atmosphere

     People touch each other all the time. When we're born, the "touching" an unborn infant does with it's mother is less like touching and more like integration, until the umbilical cord is cut and an infant is laid on it's mother's chest. From there, we're touched by our parents often by being held, helped, and guided, and then later, whether it's with siblings or peers in a class, we learn about physical boundaries and the way touch can influence a person. Some are much more sensitive to touch than others, and in the case of those like myself, much more sensitive.      When I'm at work, anytime someone bumps into me or touches me by accident, they apologize. I realize that in a workplace environment, physical touch between individuals is typically frowned upon, but every time I hear the word, "sorry," when someone gets close to me or touches me, I feel the urge to challenge it. I took the love languages test not too long ago and found...

A Time And A Place For All Things; Shameful Behaviors

     Today I took a small (or big, depending on how you see it) risk.      I opened at work, and just before I left, someone I met on tinder and slept with came in, and I was so embarrassed and twitterpated, but I made a decision today too: I'm gonna talk to the people who are on my mind. I couldn't stop thinking about this tinder hookup guy as I was working and he was there with all his gorgeous study buddies, and I knew he was on my mind because I pretty pointedly ghosted him. He reached out to me on multiple occasions after we slept together, and at first I was just a little anxious, but then I got a little annoyed, and then after a while I became apathetic towards him. I stopped caring altogether about this person I'd so recently been so intimate with. We did things he said he'd never done before, that he said felt amazing, and I then promptly disappeared, and in retrospect, like how they say hindsight is 20/20, I realize how shitty that can be depend...